I can't quite put my finger on it but ever since we returned from our time away, I haven't felt like myself.
I am chalking it up to the "after vacation" blues but to be totally honest, I'm not feeling blue about being back. Not that I consciously realize anyway.
Yes, gone are the beach days // pool days // shopping all day days but it's also been great to see family {I missed my mama!} and to reconnect with friends.
I've tried getting out.
Once to a super fun blogging event to preview the fall collection of Express {SO great} + this past weekend to cheer on my "friend that I've never met but feel like I've known forever" Michelle {you might remember her from this + this post} at the Mud Hero charity event.
Things that would have me in my element + excited.
But, my mind is just so preoccupied.
I am honestly not sure with what. Just spinning.
With nonsense really.
My patience is at an all-time low. I'm so easily irritated.
I have suffered with anxiety before but this is different.
Menial things like putting dinner on, or taking Ava to the park seem like a chore.
I don't like it and am so frustrated.
I am hoping the change of seasons brings newness.
In the meantime, I am trying to surround myself with people I love + with doing things I love.
Solo time wandering the aisles at the drugstore {am I the only one who loves to do this?}, far too much coffee + yes, there has been chocolate.
I am going to kick this funk.
Of that, I am sure.
But for now, any suggestions?
Tell me I'm not the only one.
Oh to be as young + carefree as my sweet boy is in these photos.
They make me happy.
Maybe I just need to go back to the sunshine after all.
Thank God for this little blog.